Have you ever been pulled at random from line when going through security at the airport? Where they direct you to a glass box and instruct you to wait your turn to be frisked? Minus the frisking part, that is the best way I can describe the season of life I'm in since having returned to Germany about a month ago. I'm on this journey, I've been hand selected, and I'm isolated from my fellow travelers.
I was recently reading through my journal from a year ago and found that I was continually telling God that I wanted to be alone - away from everyone and everything that I knew. (Sometimes the desires God puts on our hearts are mysterious and without explanation). It is sweet and simultaneously frightening having God answer prayer. Living alone in a foreign country put me in a bit of "social shock" the first few weeks I was back. Talking to myself has become commonplace and some might say laughing aloud at my own jokes in a silent house is cause for concern; but I'm not worried. At times I feel guilty for living the selfish life I do. I don't have to be considerate of roommates, don't have to act in the best interest of a family, and don't have to be concerned for anyone but myself. I realize it's a stolen season but it's great just the same.
Part of my new year's resolution is to stop repeating myself in things I tell people (it gets embarrassing) - but I can't help myself - where God guides, He also provides. I've come to know this firsthand not only in a tangible sense but also in a "my-deepest-parts" sense. He satisfies. Isaiah 58:11 summarizes it best: "The Lord will guide you always, He will satisfy your desires in sun-scorched places and will strengthen your frame..."
Currently, I am praying about the direction I want to take in some of the relationships I established last semester. Please pray for wisdom for me as I want to make the most of my time, energy, and resources. Pray also for young hearts that would hunger for more than what the world is offering them. Chances are I am missing you and more than likely I am transatlantically loving you. Thanks for praying for me as well as for your encouraging words and support. Chey
I was recently reading through my journal from a year ago and found that I was continually telling God that I wanted to be alone - away from everyone and everything that I knew. (Sometimes the desires God puts on our hearts are mysterious and without explanation). It is sweet and simultaneously frightening having God answer prayer. Living alone in a foreign country put me in a bit of "social shock" the first few weeks I was back. Talking to myself has become commonplace and some might say laughing aloud at my own jokes in a silent house is cause for concern; but I'm not worried. At times I feel guilty for living the selfish life I do. I don't have to be considerate of roommates, don't have to act in the best interest of a family, and don't have to be concerned for anyone but myself. I realize it's a stolen season but it's great just the same.
Part of my new year's resolution is to stop repeating myself in things I tell people (it gets embarrassing) - but I can't help myself - where God guides, He also provides. I've come to know this firsthand not only in a tangible sense but also in a "my-deepest-parts" sense. He satisfies. Isaiah 58:11 summarizes it best: "The Lord will guide you always, He will satisfy your desires in sun-scorched places and will strengthen your frame..."
Currently, I am praying about the direction I want to take in some of the relationships I established last semester. Please pray for wisdom for me as I want to make the most of my time, energy, and resources. Pray also for young hearts that would hunger for more than what the world is offering them. Chances are I am missing you and more than likely I am transatlantically loving you. Thanks for praying for me as well as for your encouraging words and support. Chey
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